Praying for More Follicles

Okay so today's scan showed that only three follicles are around the size they need to be for IVF.  My estrogen has increased again but they still need it to be higher.  So two more days of the increased meds and hopefully Monday will bring on good news.  I'm feeling kind of down about my lack of follicles.  I know that more doesn't necessarily mean that they will be better but I'm scared I won't have enough.  At this point I would be happy if we could get two perfect blasts to transfer.  Ideally it would be nice to have a few embryo's to freeze given my age and fear that baby #2 will be harder due to increased age.  If I could have a couple to freeze now essentially they would be  a backup plan if a fresh cycle doesn't work next time.  I know that I should just focus on getting baby #1 but I know I also want two.

I believe with all of my heart that I am meant to be a mommy.  I can't accept that it may not be meant to be.  This is what keeps me positive through all of this.